dinda~ pulang nak?

for those who concerns....

from then to now.

alot of things had happen to me past few days back. let me put back in order.

17 February 2010, Wednesday~

Working day. suppose in the morning i shud drive back to PD. but well i need to have my car service first. herm. its morning 8.00 am i go drive to bangi while driving i try to reach the service centre on my cellphone.. tapi x angkat. so i called my-so-call Head Planner(basically he's incharge of my team in Exxonmobil Refinery in PD but i dont think he do all the work.. mcm copy paste je..LOL). and i told him that i could be late coming to office sbb nak service centre. tapi he said x bole sbb that morning we were going to have a meeting with the clients.

herm halfway to bangi i made a U-turn n head back to PD. but then halfway going to PD i remembered last time i had my car service wasnt that long pon.. x payah book n x pyah tunggu lame.. so maybe sempat kot service keta then reach PD before 10 am. then another U-turn head back to bangi...

i wondered, x bukak lagi ke service centre tu? herm x pe i just drive to bangi.. rupenye x bukak pon.. demm. duduk jap tepi longkang(istighfar).. haha lantak la busuk pon. i started panicking kot. haha u know why? sbb my Suzy(thats what i named my car) already exceeded 5000km of mileage and in fact almost reach 6000km. and the coupon for free service labour charge only valid before 6000km. hermm. ok, then i called SUZUKI assist ask for any service centre which are open. haha u know what he said? MELAKA .. haha damn. jauh plak..

ok. then fuck the mileage. fuck the coupon. just go to work.. and i rushed back to PD. as i reached PD at exactly 10 am, i was informed that the meeting was canceled.. Fuck. rugi duit minyak je bwk laju2. laju kot.. but not as fast as my long lost baby la. this is a new car.. theres a limit. so i went to work as usual.. but in the afternoon i was so pissed at my boss tuh, i just blah from my work n went home at sepang. hehs.. well he couldve told me the meeting was canceled la...~~

as i reached home start packing up my stuffs and guitar n i went to Faizal's (he's a lonely arse bitch living alone in Putrajaya LOL. in another word a good friend =).
so there goes my day.

18 February 2010, Thursday~

Faizal and me basically we are two good frens and we actually had form a band last time back in uni years. the band was consist of a bassist played by Kamil our band leader, a lead guitar Faizal, second guitar played by myself and also vocal by me as well. we had 3 drummers.. tuka2 last time.. azzam, abu and lan gay. oh yeah and pompom boy which acted by Joe. the band was then had to broke up since kamil had to go study overseas, erm Faizal, azzam and others found a new hobby which is Online gaming.. so that left me alone.

so on that day we (faizal and me) wanted to jamm and started making videos of us.. and to put an ad to find oursevles a new committed drummer. hehs.. but as the day go on WE NEVER EVEN TOUCH THE GUITARS... LOLS~..

and yeah dat day faizal brought me to vegetarian restaurant at cyber.. i had KONG POH CHICKEN RICE... yeah chicken.. it taste like chicken but actually TOFU..and at nite we had prime roast chicken salad.. HEALTHY DAY ..lol.

so there goes my day again. n it didnt go as i planned. T_T

20 February 2010, Saturday(today)~

SEMINAR DAY.. harini rase mcm working day kot.. yela kan kene force pegi seminar tah pape. lol. as usual, i woke up in the morning solat subuh. then dress to work.. tapi harini special.. usually i wear coverall(its a fire retardant monkey suit oil n gas people has to wear). but today i wear normal clothes yela nak gi seminar kot. gile ke pakai fire retardant, panasss kot.

so i got into my suzy and drove to seremban at 7.10 am. ouh yeah the seminar is at Royal Bintang seremban. hehs. then baru je klua highway.. i checked my messages in my hp. i remembered my colleagues ade send msgs about the seminar. so i opened.. astaghfirullah rupenye seminar tuh start pkol 11.30 daaa... this is too early la azri~~!!. huhu forgetful azri... then i turned back head to home in sepang. LOL.

so now here i am in front of the computer with nothing to do. just now i check my facebook msgs. i got this from my ex.

my ex: hye..ep br prasan ...u r single.. sory x tuka awal2..sian kat azri...

and this is my reply. punye la panjang,

azri: ermm... ep yg x nak dgn azri lagi kan.,. u said so before.. n i dont know shud i still be engaging in this relationship? when i ask u u said u dont know n u dont have a reply/no answers ... sumtimes in life no answers are actually a decision. a decision from u that u dont want to engage a relationship with me..

but lets start a new life ? lets start fresh... lets start a new relationship.. then u choose if u want me or someone else.. im starting a new life too.. whether with u or without u i cannot tell.. its true what u said.. sume tuh rahsia tuhan.. but all i can do is just hope for the best. n be the best i can be.. kalau mmg ep da x de prasaan kat azri.. theres not much i could do. but im very grateful that God makes me feel for you.. a thing that called "love" .

p/s: remember this " in life, sumtimes NO ANSWER is a DECISION "

pergh ai punye kaler PINK lah!!! LOL..

come to think of it i'm not sure what shud i feel about my self and everything. hermm.
but then just now i watched "Jack" at astro..

The movie is about a boy with a unique aging disorder: one that makes him age 4 times faster than normal. Movie picks up when Jack (Robin Williams) is 10 years old, but looks 40. He tries to go to public school for the first time, and tries to become friends with kids his own age. His physical appearance causes him lots of problems, however.

the soundtrack sounds nice and makes me wonder how good life is and we should always look for the future and reach the stars with or without wings.. just like "jack".. =)

heres the song, enjoy~

There's a road - long and winding
The lights are blindin' - but it gets there
Don't give up - don't look back
There's a silver linin' - it's out there somewhere
Everybody wants an answer - everybody needs a friend
We all need a shinin' star on which we can depend
N' so tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before - (to find what you're
Looking for)
There'll be times - in your life
Ya when you' be dancin' n' shit - but you ain't gettin it
But don't get disillusioned - no, don't expect too much
'cause if what you have is all you can get - just keep on
Tryin' - it just ain't happened yet
Everybody wants to be winner - everybody has a dream
We all need a shinin' star when things ain't what they seem
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before - (gotta get where you're
Headed for)

Everybody wants some kindness - everybody needs a break
We all need a shinin' star when things get hard to take
So tonight we're gonna wish upon a star
We never wished upon before

~Rain Check?

terakhir~

adakah gay bg seorang lelaki dgr lagu mcm neh?? but i dont care~ lalalala

empty..

Empty lies in the darkness of nights
Does it really empty?
Or just the silence that brings up the feeling?
Or is it just "calm" that actually is felt?
I'm confused.. but no worries
Its just a feeling.

Empty is not full
Then how does "full" feels like?
Is it the same as we felt full after having meals?
Or just the way that we feel after buying a favorite shoe?
Oh... I'm confused.. but no worries
Its just a thought.

Empty is when you lost someone
When you have someone do you feel content?
Do we cherished the moment when we are together?
Or do we feel more "empty" together?
Hmm.. I'm confused.. but no worries

Either way, Empty is just Empty.
Maybe I'm just Lonely.

~Rain check??

what blog?

today my life started as a blogger.. haha.. x penah blog pon. i mean. i dont put stuffs in a book, i dont read my thoughts aloud(like im doing now), i dont do regrets, and i dont feel like i shud tell EVERYONE about me. but i do share them.. n after that i will literally forget whatever happen to me from A to Z. hermm..

Then i calmly sit n think, what shud i put in blogs? hmm how bout this.. lets make this blog as a "lesson-learned blog". haha. @_@ Initially actually i just want to put all my writings/songs/poem bla bla. but well this can be considered as my writings too, dont u think? and i dont care how many followers i have.. what matters is to let go sum things out of me. U see i always live in my own world. i have this thick blue wall around me.. no one has ever crossed it before... but sumtimes i let few people in and i mean it.. very FEW, share them my thoughts.. then i have to "halau" them out.. sorry x ble tdo in my so-called fortress. Or sumtimes i go out... free my self, and express whatever is inside me through creating beautiful tunes and tones that we called "music".. hmm tunes and tones.. haha. Maybe i need to change??

SO, what do I learn today?? ...... well for the past few days, i started reminiscing all my good years with my friends and families. all of them. pernah terfikir, pernah ke azri bwat salah kat diorg? tanpa disedari? kalau ade I just hope that God will show me....i just want to be the best i can be.. to be good to other people... they are fighting for their lives too.. so nape nak kejam sgt dgn org laen? they have their own fight we have ours.. so be good to others. but for the time being. i just want to be alone.. nak bwat something pon senyap2 je.. x yah bgtau org laen.

Theres one time, at that time, four of us, two trainees of mine, my hsemate Sufian and me otw back from work.. When reaching home, Sufian ask me to stop by at a shop near our hse. ntah beli ape ntah.. ok. but later on baru je nak gerak someone called me. So i angkat.. bla bla sume..after awhile I ended the call and straight give the phone to Sufian who were next to me in my suzy..er.. my car. huhu.. azri x biase bwk kereta sorg2.. slalu my so-called "partner" yg pegang my stuffs bile driving... huhu.. kalau drive sorg2 still all the stuffs will be put at the co-pilot seat.. hrmm.. it will take a while azri....

~rain check??

tu es Foutu~

Tu m'as promis et je t'ai cru

Tu m'as promis le soleil en hiver et
un arc en ciel
Tu m'as promis le sable doré, j'ai recu
une carte postale

Tu m'as promis le ciel et la terre et une
vie d'amour

Tu m'as promis ton coeur, ton sourire,
mais j'ai eu des grimaces

Tu m'as promis et je t'ai cru

Tu m'as promis le cheval ailé que j'ai
jamais eu

Tu m'as promis le fil d'Ariane, mais tu
l'as coupé

Tu m'as promis les notes de Mozart, pas des
plats cassés
Tu m'as promis d'etre ta reine, j'ai eu pour
sceptre un balai

Tu m'as promis et je t'ai cru
Tu es foutu....

Je ne sais pas ce qui se passe
Mais je sais pourquoi on m'appelle
"mademoiselle pas de chance"

Tu m'as promis...
Tu es foutu....


translation:

You promised me
and I believed you

you promised me the sun in winter and an arch in sky
you promised me the gilded sand I received a postal card
you promised me the sky and the earth and a love life
you promised me your heart your mouse but I had grimaces

you promised me
and I believed you

you promised me the winged horse that I never had
you promised me the ariane wire but you cut it
you promised me the grades of Mozart not of the dishes broken
you promised me to be your queen, I had for scepter a broom

you promised me
and I believed you
but you screwed-up

"I do not know this that happens
but I know why one calls me 'miss not of luck' "

you promised me
you screwed-up....